I graduate next semester and I dont know what I’m doing. It seems kind of silly for an education major to say this. I will be graduating with a degree and certification to teach 4th-8th grade math and science. Let me repeat, FOURTH through EIGHTH grade MATH and SCIENCE. In fact, the reason I chose this grade level and these subject areas was so that I would be able to get a job after graduation. But the thing is— I don’t want to teach in central Texas, in Texas, in public schools. Its not that I dont like math and science. I am absolutely in love with how math equations and how the world works. I still want to be in the education field. I’m not picky on grade level. But I want to teach at an international level. Perhaps teaching abroad or teaching international students in the US. Thats the realistic part of me.
The other part of me wants to go outside of the education field and just work by the coast absorbing life of the oceans. Maybe I’ve been watching Free Willy too much.
I recently watched Reality Bites. Thats where the quote above is from. Man, I love Winona Ryder. Love her. Great actress and the movie was great too but I hated the ending. A group of post graduates are trying to transition to the real world after college. They realize that with apartment and tutition loan bills piling up that working at the Gap or a drug store is reasonable. Anyways, the point is that at the end of the movie Winona, the main character, settles down with a boy in a house instead of putting her degree and passions to use. Maybe she does later on. It was also listed as a romance movie.
But my reality is that I need to explore. I need to. Thats my goal after graduation.
My South East Asian professor gave us a reading assignment on working on an international level. Its called Working World; Careers in International Education, Exchange, and Development by Sherry L. Mueller and Mark Overmann. So far in reading in the book: you have to get your shiz together and figure out what you’re really passionate about and do something about it. Thats reality. You get a job in something that you care about. Your cause. Almost as if money wasn’t your limitation. Money is ALWAYS my limitation. Its hard to be passionate when the lack of money is always on your mind.
My causes, My passions:
Now I just need to figure out how to fit these all together.
I don’t know what I’m doing after graduation and for the first time I’m okay with that.
As of lately I’ve been VERY focused on Earth Science. This happens every semester. If not science then math. I get consumed in the world of numbers and how the Earth works that I forget the world we actually live in and the people in it. Being in class about South East Asia and volunteering with refugees helps keep me grounded and sane. When I’m in ESL classes with refugees I find myself liking the informal education prcoess and learning about other’s culture and lives more than teaching 4-8 math and science education.
“What about the ability for Cambodians to make change?”—
Journalist Elizabeth Becker points out, in her review of Brinkley’s novel, what about the ability for Cambodians to make change? Becker, who is the author of When the War Was Over: Cambodia and the Khmer Rouge Revolution, challenges Brinkley’s assertion that ordinary Cambodians are naturally compliant to authority, a quality which he says has been instilled in their culture since the days when Angkor kings callously subjugated their people. This, for Becker, is a caricature in the tradition of Western Orientalism. Instead, she points to the possibility that it is the Cambodians, not the international community, who can bring much needed change.